I have been a student my entire life, leaving for university straight out of high school and staying there for a long five years. Finishing university brings up a lot of limiting beliefs surrounding financial security. But at the start of this year, I decided how important it was to act out of love and not from fear. This has led me to some very interesting places but I’ve mostly been able to trust that I am supported and that the universe will look after me.
Today was the final day of university degree, ever. No more classes. No more assignments. I don’t even have exams. To put it simply – shit just got real! Coming up to this moment, I started to feel bouts of anxiety. What happens if I can’t find a job? How am I going to support myself? The tension got worse when my partner decided to take a job opportunity in Melbourne. Heartbroken and crippled with indecisiveness, I felt lost.
Starting to look through old journal entries from the start of the year, I remembered the mantra that I set for myself: gentle determination. The universe will never give you anything that you cannot handle. So I breathed and felt deeply into the two decisions I had at hand. Do I follow my love to Melbourne or do I stay on the Gold Coast and pursue my creative career? The answer came to me in a series of events.
I applied for an internship with Violet Gray without believing that I had the spare time but knowing that I couldn’t let the opportunity go. I’ll just see what happens. So on the sunny day that I turned twenty-three, I met with Alex and Louie and was offered the position. Similar opportunities continued to arise and once I started to ask – the universe began to deliver and it became clear that I was meant to stay on the coast.
It breaks my heart knowing that soon there will be an entire state between me and my partner but I also have a really strong feeling that everything will be okay. We’re both following our dreams, how could that be wrong? I look forward to exploring a different form of our relationship and discovering new ways to love him – ways that transcend distance and time.
As my last day of university comes to an end, my computer buzzes with an email informing me that I’ve been accepted as a freelance social media coach for an innovative business working with start-ups. Hand on my heart. Deep breathing. I repeat: I am supported.